In case you haven't yet looked at the time stamp, today is the 24th of September. Exactly one month from now I will be giving my last pre-mission talk. In one month and two days I will be set apart as a missionary of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. In one month and three days I will enter the Missionary Training Center.
Now that I've laid that all out, I might as well start the count down. 34 days until I walk through those doors. I'll admit, despite being mega-excited, I'm nervous. What if I walk through those doors and realize I can't do it? My mind floods with what-ifs and self-doubts. Yet a much stronger voice speaks from a place in my heart no fear can touch. I KNOW this is what I'm meant to do.
I notice my flaws, I fear my imperfect will hold me back, I worry that I won't be good enough. But I know the Church is true. I know that the Gospel has brought me peace and happiness. I know my Savior loves me. And I wish I could share this knowledge with the whole world. And when one looks at it that way, how could I not feel inadequate. 1 compared to approximately 6.5 billion.
Yet I wasn't asked to teach 6.5 billion. I will not be asked to do anything that I cannot do. I will be prepared for the challenges that come my way. Looking back on the past year I can see that my preparation has already started.
